Escaping.....Falling

I never felt like this before,
As if my body was ripped apart;
And I could feel every limb as it tore,
A cold stake piercing through my heart.

My only solution was to escape,
Trying to get out , I only fall in;
As I swallowed hard and put on my cape,
Take a deep breath and and dive right in.

As I fall into the abyss I call Darkness,
Putting on a mask as thick as lead;
I hid myself from feigning sadness,
Just to find myself filled with regret.

Leaned on the wall staring at the hole,
My cry only echoed inside;
I lost all feeling , all except the cold,
In there alone, something died.

But out of nowhere a voice I heard,
It sounded faint but also clear;
Calling to me through all the dirt,
That I should know help is here.

A hand came down from the above,
Telling me to hold on and all will be fine;
It felt warm and filled with love,
As I escaped and left that hole behind.




Note:

       I recently went through a tough time in my life , this was the experience that not many people knew about. Not even my own parents knew how I felt at the time and until now they still never did.What I did should never be attempted , I still regret that I ever tried. I did something extremely stupid , I tried to kill myself.

Depression can be really scary and if the right people aren't around you , you never know what you'll do. I was glad that there were people who cared about me , if not for them I would not still be here. For all my friends who are reading this , thank you for being by me for when I needed you all the most.

In Darkness....No More

Life is never ever black or white,

Never just a good or bad day;

Wont be a retreat or a fight,

Its always and will always be grey,

Depression fills the misty air , 

Unheard cries are everywhere;

Complaining that life isn't fair,

All the problems that we cant bear.

Stuck between the good and bad,

But never ever the better ending;

Only the one filled with dread,

Agony ,pain and all the screaming.

Emotions are for the weak,

Hopes are for the sick;

Trust is all but a trick,

Love burns like a candle wick.

I shall bear all this pain,

So no one will ever have to;

So their efforts don't go down the drain,

If its not me, then Who?

Like a knight with armor so shiny,

I shall be there when you're in need;

Bringing you light when their isn't any

Never letting you frown or bleed.

Never Let Go......Nevertheless

The heart aches and longs for you,
Each thought of you is an inch closer to death;
What we had I thought it was all true,
Until you turn your back on me and left.

Everyday I sink deeper into depression,
Waiting for my time to come;
Keeping in all those emotions,
Till my senses all went numb.

Just when I thought hope was lost,
A hand approached and held me tight;
"Dont worry , I'll hold you close",
Said the angel who gave me a chance to fight.

Those words echoed loudly in my mind,
As a single tear drop from eyes;
Came down my face in a single line,
Gone through my lips and dries.

What I felt next was a new discovery,
Something new yet familiar;
Like an old shirt back from the laundry,
The Old Me is back and without fear.



Its been so long since my last poem......This few months that I was gone was life changing for me....I found there was things i never knew existed......and was more than glad that I found it........what was that?

A True Friend .

Bad Days.....Disappear

Curse the dawn and all it's light,

As wrath and hatred fills my mornings;

Escaping my lovely bed with all my might,

And slamming the snooze when the alarm rings.

I drag myself to the shower,

Finishing it all at my quickest pace;

As I only have less than an hour,

My mornings are the start of a race.

Set foot in school preparing  for the worst,

Racing to class like a handicapped zombie;

Only race that I never wanna be first,

But still wanna be the best I can be.

As I continue my day with this fatigue body,

A glimpse of your face appear in my eyes;

You walk towards and greeted me nicely,

Feels like I've just eaten a thousand pies.

Your smile chases my wrath away,

Your laugh powers me the entire day,

At times you say you look so dull and so grey,

But to me you're pretty no matter what you say.

To make me feel better and clear my stress,

I don't need cigarettes or even beer;

You just have to smile at me in your beautiful dress,

Then you can make my bad days disappear.

You.......My Special One

I've got a special someone,
one's that is really fun;
it can be anybody,
even if they make you run.

When I think about her,
she make's me feel;
something I never felt,
I'm happy that its real.

Even if she think's I'm a fading shadow,
She still the one with the floating halo;
but still I think that she is great,
and hope that I can get a date.

And everytime that I see her,
I feel that we'll have something next year;
but i do think that it'll not come true,
that's why I'm feeling blue.

I hope she's happy wherever she's in,
and that she's really not that mean;
but before everything is done,
I wanna tell her she's my special one.



This is one of my first few poems.....just wanted to share it again cause it was kinda far behind.......this makes me rethink again about how I felt last time when I first wrote this~ Ah.....the memories~

Confessions.......Unexpected

Day by day I kept this feeling,
locked in my heart, forever filling;

I won't tell you who this feelings are for,

But then I can't take it anymore.

At times I feel I should tell the world,

That to me she shine like the brightest pearl;

An angel gently floating on clouds,

But that's not all I like her about.

I arranged a meeting to meet her somewhere,

With beautiful roses and chocolates tasting like the sweetest pear;

Trembling with both fear and excitement,

Unsure the results will be happiness or rejection.

She arrived gracefully at the said place,

Unsure of what to do except to tie my shoelace;

As I sit up again , I pulled out the roses and chocolates,

I braced myself and told her the three magic words.

Her expression stiffen like she saw a ghost,

And those are hurt me the most;

I got rejected like how I expected,

Short and quick and feelings affected.

I decided that she was not the one,

But her explanation wasn't done;

She decided to share a secret with me since i shared mine,

But what happened next didn't come to my mind.

She said a secret is to be told through a whisper,

And as my face got closer to her;

Not a sound but a kiss landed on my cheek,

I thought I was dreaming, I thought I was sick;

But she said that its all good and its cool,

and that she loved me too,April Fool!~<3 br="">


I have no idea why I wrote this poem......just had a spark at a moment.Maybe I hoping that love will be as innocent and sweet as this or maybe I'm hoping it would happen to me. Anyways I hope you enjoyed reading and make this April Fools' Day not just a funny one but a romantic one~

2013.....Carpe Diem!

Another year has come and pass,
A blink of an eye,it was so fast;
Getting through Apocalypse,so it wasn't our last,
So enjoy it, we must!

Memories and moments come and go,
What's ahead we'll never know;
Just brace ourselves and brave ahead,
And mend our mistakes, its never too late.

We should Right our Wrongs,
For the process is not very long;
As long as the heart is pure and true,
I'm sure everyone can do it too.

My new year resolutions, I'm not so sure,
But I know 2013 is gonna be much better;
Work hard and it will pay,
so good luck and seize the day!~

Liked you......Maybe

Our meeting was short and simple,

I wouldn't even say it was proper;

But the importance of that was not little,

for it brought us just a bit closer.

And every single time  I saw your Facebook status,

I could feel in my heart a temporary pause;

Not saying that my feelings to you ever matters,

But I'm not very sure of the cause.

I have no idea what this could be,

nor what this could even mean;

maybe the problem lies with me,

or something that cannot be seen.

Ok, maybe I might have feelings for her,

And having the same feelings for me she may;

But I know we will never be sure,

For we have different paths and walked our own way.

And like a star only seen and can never arrive,

I'll be your guardian angel and keep you from harm;

Forever protecting you with all my life,

Till the day you come into my arms.