Escaping.....Falling

I never felt like this before,
As if my body was ripped apart;
And I could feel every limb as it tore,
A cold stake piercing through my heart.

My only solution was to escape,
Trying to get out , I only fall in;
As I swallowed hard and put on my cape,
Take a deep breath and and dive right in.

As I fall into the abyss I call Darkness,
Putting on a mask as thick as lead;
I hid myself from feigning sadness,
Just to find myself filled with regret.

Leaned on the wall staring at the hole,
My cry only echoed inside;
I lost all feeling , all except the cold,
In there alone, something died.

But out of nowhere a voice I heard,
It sounded faint but also clear;
Calling to me through all the dirt,
That I should know help is here.

A hand came down from the above,
Telling me to hold on and all will be fine;
It felt warm and filled with love,
As I escaped and left that hole behind.




Note:

       I recently went through a tough time in my life , this was the experience that not many people knew about. Not even my own parents knew how I felt at the time and until now they still never did.What I did should never be attempted , I still regret that I ever tried. I did something extremely stupid , I tried to kill myself.

Depression can be really scary and if the right people aren't around you , you never know what you'll do. I was glad that there were people who cared about me , if not for them I would not still be here. For all my friends who are reading this , thank you for being by me for when I needed you all the most.

In Darkness....No More

Life is never ever black or white,

Never just a good or bad day;

Wont be a retreat or a fight,

Its always and will always be grey,

Depression fills the misty air , 

Unheard cries are everywhere;

Complaining that life isn't fair,

All the problems that we cant bear.

Stuck between the good and bad,

But never ever the better ending;

Only the one filled with dread,

Agony ,pain and all the screaming.

Emotions are for the weak,

Hopes are for the sick;

Trust is all but a trick,

Love burns like a candle wick.

I shall bear all this pain,

So no one will ever have to;

So their efforts don't go down the drain,

If its not me, then Who?

Like a knight with armor so shiny,

I shall be there when you're in need;

Bringing you light when their isn't any

Never letting you frown or bleed.

Never Let Go......Nevertheless

The heart aches and longs for you,
Each thought of you is an inch closer to death;
What we had I thought it was all true,
Until you turn your back on me and left.

Everyday I sink deeper into depression,
Waiting for my time to come;
Keeping in all those emotions,
Till my senses all went numb.

Just when I thought hope was lost,
A hand approached and held me tight;
"Dont worry , I'll hold you close",
Said the angel who gave me a chance to fight.

Those words echoed loudly in my mind,
As a single tear drop from eyes;
Came down my face in a single line,
Gone through my lips and dries.

What I felt next was a new discovery,
Something new yet familiar;
Like an old shirt back from the laundry,
The Old Me is back and without fear.



Its been so long since my last poem......This few months that I was gone was life changing for me....I found there was things i never knew existed......and was more than glad that I found it........what was that?

A True Friend .

Bad Days.....Disappear

Curse the dawn and all it's light,

As wrath and hatred fills my mornings;

Escaping my lovely bed with all my might,

And slamming the snooze when the alarm rings.

I drag myself to the shower,

Finishing it all at my quickest pace;

As I only have less than an hour,

My mornings are the start of a race.

Set foot in school preparing  for the worst,

Racing to class like a handicapped zombie;

Only race that I never wanna be first,

But still wanna be the best I can be.

As I continue my day with this fatigue body,

A glimpse of your face appear in my eyes;

You walk towards and greeted me nicely,

Feels like I've just eaten a thousand pies.

Your smile chases my wrath away,

Your laugh powers me the entire day,

At times you say you look so dull and so grey,

But to me you're pretty no matter what you say.

To make me feel better and clear my stress,

I don't need cigarettes or even beer;

You just have to smile at me in your beautiful dress,

Then you can make my bad days disappear.

You.......My Special One

I've got a special someone,
one's that is really fun;
it can be anybody,
even if they make you run.

When I think about her,
she make's me feel;
something I never felt,
I'm happy that its real.

Even if she think's I'm a fading shadow,
She still the one with the floating halo;
but still I think that she is great,
and hope that I can get a date.

And everytime that I see her,
I feel that we'll have something next year;
but i do think that it'll not come true,
that's why I'm feeling blue.

I hope she's happy wherever she's in,
and that she's really not that mean;
but before everything is done,
I wanna tell her she's my special one.



This is one of my first few poems.....just wanted to share it again cause it was kinda far behind.......this makes me rethink again about how I felt last time when I first wrote this~ Ah.....the memories~

Confessions.......Unexpected

Day by day I kept this feeling,
locked in my heart, forever filling;

I won't tell you who this feelings are for,

But then I can't take it anymore.

At times I feel I should tell the world,

That to me she shine like the brightest pearl;

An angel gently floating on clouds,

But that's not all I like her about.

I arranged a meeting to meet her somewhere,

With beautiful roses and chocolates tasting like the sweetest pear;

Trembling with both fear and excitement,

Unsure the results will be happiness or rejection.

She arrived gracefully at the said place,

Unsure of what to do except to tie my shoelace;

As I sit up again , I pulled out the roses and chocolates,

I braced myself and told her the three magic words.

Her expression stiffen like she saw a ghost,

And those are hurt me the most;

I got rejected like how I expected,

Short and quick and feelings affected.

I decided that she was not the one,

But her explanation wasn't done;

She decided to share a secret with me since i shared mine,

But what happened next didn't come to my mind.

She said a secret is to be told through a whisper,

And as my face got closer to her;

Not a sound but a kiss landed on my cheek,

I thought I was dreaming, I thought I was sick;

But she said that its all good and its cool,

and that she loved me too,April Fool!~<3 br="">


I have no idea why I wrote this poem......just had a spark at a moment.Maybe I hoping that love will be as innocent and sweet as this or maybe I'm hoping it would happen to me. Anyways I hope you enjoyed reading and make this April Fools' Day not just a funny one but a romantic one~

2013.....Carpe Diem!

Another year has come and pass,
A blink of an eye,it was so fast;
Getting through Apocalypse,so it wasn't our last,
So enjoy it, we must!

Memories and moments come and go,
What's ahead we'll never know;
Just brace ourselves and brave ahead,
And mend our mistakes, its never too late.

We should Right our Wrongs,
For the process is not very long;
As long as the heart is pure and true,
I'm sure everyone can do it too.

My new year resolutions, I'm not so sure,
But I know 2013 is gonna be much better;
Work hard and it will pay,
so good luck and seize the day!~

Liked you......Maybe

Our meeting was short and simple,

I wouldn't even say it was proper;

But the importance of that was not little,

for it brought us just a bit closer.

And every single time  I saw your Facebook status,

I could feel in my heart a temporary pause;

Not saying that my feelings to you ever matters,

But I'm not very sure of the cause.

I have no idea what this could be,

nor what this could even mean;

maybe the problem lies with me,

or something that cannot be seen.

Ok, maybe I might have feelings for her,

And having the same feelings for me she may;

But I know we will never be sure,

For we have different paths and walked our own way.

And like a star only seen and can never arrive,

I'll be your guardian angel and keep you from harm;

Forever protecting you with all my life,

Till the day you come into my arms.

Meetings.....Farewells

We began with the shake of our hands,
Just a normal courtesy that everyone does;
Exchanging names then becoming friends,
No one knew how long it would last.

We talked,we texted and we phoned each other,
From dawn to dusk, there's no stopping us;
Splitting up couldn't be any other harder,
As time goes by, say goodbye we must.

Many might think this is our final farewell,
Being unable to meet in the future;
But we have gone through Hell,
Not alone but together.

At times there are feud and fight,
Even time we never look at each other's eyes;
But we forgave and forget by the end of the night,
Because inside of us, we are all trying to be nice.

At this final moment, no tears should be shed,
Many have come to this stage and now its our turn;
For fate have brought us together to be met,
Cause " As One Door Closes Another Opens"


Farewells are the hardest things to do but we must remember that when there is a Goodbye, there will be another Hello. So we should make the most of everything and Seize The Day....Carpe Diem!~

Malaysian Food.....Unity

Ipoh ,Penang , Selangor,
有多 food for you to explore;
Under hot sun, still makan rojak tambah cili,
We Malaysian can be united so easily.

Nasi Lemak & Chicken rice,
Kopi Peng & Milo Ais;
Everything so freakin nice,
Hail, Unity RISE!~

Two friends dunno where to go,
Malay guy say lets go drink KOPI-O;
Indian guy say anywhere you go I follow,
Chinese guy shouts “Ei BoJio!~”.

Chinese go eat Tosai,
Its an Indian food they say ;
Racist people can  go  死
Unity is what I say!

We all eat whenever we could,
All those food are equally good;
We Malaysian eat as much as we could,
Our Unity is brought together by food.

Memories.......Timeless

Within a blink of an eye,

eight months come and go;

oh how the time fly,

but now are strangers no more.

As if it was yesterday,

we only knew each other by name;

and here we are today,

hearts entwined as if it was the same.

These moments feels like a dream,

filled with hardship and good friends;

as tough as it may seem,

I wished it never end.

Our journey together is almost ending,

as we live our final moment; 

we may not all have the same feeling;

but tears will be shed and memories never forgotten.

This poem is for my friends in college and classmates of SM3, I hope we never forget the awesome moments we spend with each other and always remember the fun and laughs we had. ♥

Looking at life....The right way

Life is nothing but obstacles,
filled with many unknown things;

blinding us like a cracked spectacles,

letting us do the wondering.

Dreams in our life never exist,

for what we want never come true;

unless we solve it with our own fist,

we'll end up being useless too.

For what do we need to strife for,

for our hope has never come;

as we lose faith more and more,

our love for life has become numb.

But if we learn to look at it right,

to read all of it between the lines;

then there's not a need for us to fight,

no need for us to trigger more mines.

We just give love never asking it back,

resist all frustration just for a while;

holding our hopes tight without letting it crack,

so hold our heads up and just smile (:

#this is dedicated to all my friends who never look at life the right way!~

Words.....Unsaid

The bond between us started to grow,
many things that needs to be said and done;
but there's no way for me to let you know,
so that you'll know that you're my one.

I should tell you how I really feel,
but afraid I am of losing you;
not sure how long I'll wait until,
before my courage pulls me through.

So many obstacles stopping me,
what more can I actually do;
to let you see what I can see,
to let you realise what I can mean to you.

But who says I can be stopped,
if I put my whole heart into it;
not even a bullet can make me drop,
so I'll stand tall and be on my feet.

I guess I'll have to take a risk,
no matter how dangerous it is;
I'll hold my breath and clench my fist,
until the day I get a kiss.

Turns out to be simpler than I thought,
and I got out of it all just fine;
feels like many wars have been fought,
but it's all worth it cause now she's Mine.

My Advice.....About Love

You can't have her ain't my problem,
you have have your own stand;
go and think how to solve em',
only then you'll be her man.

First you got to try to know her,
and don't just play pretend;
then only she'll be your lover,
instead of just your friend.

You have to make the first move,
and always lend her a hand,
and try to tell her the truth,
and do the best you can.

I hope that I can help you,
where ever you are in this world;
so that you won't be fool,
in front of your own girl.

*I dedicated this to people trying to get the one that they love but still waiting for a miracle.

Please Go Out......With Me

Could you be the one,
I think I'm falling for you;
cause you became my sun,
and also my moon too.

As you look at me kindly,
with eyes that shines brightly;
and smiles that glowed sweetly,
I started to fall for you slowly.

My heart beats like a drum,
as you stand nearer to me;
and my face looks really dumb,
cause you're the only one I see.

After writing all of this,
I hope we can go for a date;
even though I'm not on your list,
but us meeting is definitely fate.

Pains In Life....Bear WIth It

I need to know my fate,
pulling a trigger at my head;
surrounded by all this hate,
watch as my world start to fade.

All i wanna see is someone's smile,
don't really care how long it has to be;
even if its just for a while,
it would really enlighten me.

But nobody cares what I think,
they just ignore me so casually;
all i can do now is drink,
forget my friends and family.

Amidst all the commotions I've been,
there's one person who smiles at me;
not like a anybody I've seen,
and she's not letting me be.

She saddens when she me cry,
I tend to question myself why;
does she really care for me,
I'll have to do what's right for me.

*I wrote this poem for a someone who don't even know me....hoping he would change, I've decided to dedicate this to him....

Waiting For A Miracle.....It Came.

Nobody knows about it,
there's a problem running about,
like falling into a pit,
no chance of coming out.

Giving in was the only choice,
the pain grows larger;
only thing going smaller was my voice,
as i keep dropping deeper.

I've been waiting so long,
unsure of what to expect;
hoping to become strong,
overcome what i lack.

Then a pair of hands materialize,
she appear in front of me;
helping me to realize,
and setting me free.

I was filled with hope and joy ,
wings grew as i soar;
just like a small boy,
I yearned for more.

Now standing in the clouds,
seeing the beauty of everything;
my voice is now loud,
ready to face anything.

Tekken 6 finally out!!!!!and 6 things about it.......

-6 New Characters:Leo,Miguel,Bob,Zafina,Lars,Alicia

-New moves
-Better graphics than Tekken 5
-Stage can collapse
-New feature:multiplayer co-op
-Item moves


Tekken 6-After waiting for almost half a year......the long awaited Tekken 6 is finally out for PSP......However,only ppl with original firmware can play this game.....if u have this pls tell me for i have waited very long for this....xD

Michael Jackson "The King of Pop" , Rest In Peace!

-Greatest Moonwalker-

- The Late Micheal Jackson-

I cant believe he passed away , lets have a moment of silence for MJ
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His music was the best, and his dance moves is unbeatable.
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